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And Then I'll Be Happy

by Colatura

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1.
Intro 01:23
They say that wisdom Only arrives in time They say that patience Is not a virtue of mine This life won’t be as advertised
2.
Absent Mind 02:41
Don’t forget that you’re human So insignificant in time And so hard to define These vines they pull you under A product of your absent mind Why so tight and unkind? No matter how much you shine it, it still has stains It's just your human nature To be afraid of what you’ll find When you quiet your mind Don’t try to fill what’s left there You’ll rob the beauty on the other side of despair No matter how much you shine it, it still has stains
3.
Scars 03:00
When we were young I gave you my heart To hold in your hand You nailed it to the floor And then demanded I stand And oh it wasn’t enough But Someday you will have scars that match my heart Someday you will have scars that match my heart Buried under My floorboards now You’re rotting away Some nights I peer down through the crack See myself in your face Cause oh it wasn’t enough But Someday you will have scars that match my heart Someday you will have scars that match my heart Someday you will have scars that match my heart Someday you will have scars that match my heart
4.
King Kalm 03:39
That’s how it goes You arrive to find the door is closed And it all falls down That’s how it goes So much sadness and you know it’s got nowhere to go And it all falls down Lie awake You wish that you could heal what’s wrong Gotta find a way You need a place to be King Kalm That’s how it goes Pick at scabs and the wounds will never close And it all falls down That’s how it goes Stare at shadows and believe all the lies you were told That’s why it all falls down Lie awake You wish that you could heal what’s wrong Gotta find a way You need a place to be King Kalm That’s how it goes Medicate so I don’t have to see the ghosts
5.
Homecoming 04:04
Skyline, spruce trees My mind is the only thing moving Miracles have been left For tall tales and big screens Black snow knee high I’m standing alone in the street light Sirens awake art deco sleeping Maybe it’s a sign The cold has left me numb Hit bottom enough times It starts to feel like home I have tried to find A new place to be from Always come up short Please don’t leave me New York Fragments of memories Dancing around in the debris A long deathly calm Whispers the ending Lies that were shaped Perched on the fire escape When I was a muse Not something you could break Maybe it’s a sign The cold has left me numb Hit bottom enough times It starts to feel like home I have tried to find A new place to be from Always come up short Please don’t leave me New York Please don’t leave me New York Please don’t leave
6.
The Met 03:37
You know that feeling that you get Sharp sensation in your chest Some people call it longing But that doesn’t capture it At the market down the block Or the museum on the weekend Bumping into people but the only person there Some days crowded spaces feel lonely Some days they feel ok Well I’ve been here before On velvet chaises And there’s room for one more My eyes are glazing over Every single floor And nothing changes I’m still really fucking lonely at The Met Stuck in my head My belief used to be A man you’d meet out on the street Would turn into a partner and a careful father I’d drop my ticket and He’d pick it up as if to say I’ll always find your things before you miss them Some days crowded spaces feel lonely Some days they feel ok Well I’ve been here before On velvet chaises And there’s room for one more My eyes are glazing over Every single floor And nothing changes I’m still really fucking lonely at The Met Somehow always end up here again Well I’ve been here before On velvet chaises And there’s room for one more My eyes are glazing over Every single floor And nothing changes I’m still really fucking lonely at The Met Somehow always end up here again Ahh Stuck in my head
7.
Team Sport 03:21
She changes like the season But she’s been stuck on winter and Puts posters on the ceiling Of all the places she’s never been He makes coffee on Saturday Never adds sugar the way she likes it But he tries to River’s deep Can he cross it? Dives in Now it’s on top of him Will he swim? He stays here for the tax break Yet every job he’s had he hates Up late playing video games It’s his only real escape She handles things he doesn’t like to do But he feels like she’s trying to prove He’s a loser She tries not to River’s deep Can she cross it? Dives in Now it’s on top of her And it hurts They’ve lost ground once more Fighting for the shore Who knew drowning was a team sport? They’ve lost ground once more Fighting for the shore Who knew drowning was a team sport? They’ve lost ground once more Fighting for the shore Who knew drowning was a team sport? They’ve lost ground once more Fighting for the shore Who knew drowning was a team sport? They’ve lost the ground once more They’re fighting for the shore Why are they keeping score? Drowning’s a team sport They’ve lost the ground once more They’re fighting for the shore Why are they keeping score? Drowning’s a team sport
8.
The Ocean 04:40
Spending our nights Passing beneath the pier I’ve been a drink behind since we were there Riding that same ride The one that went upside down Where you carved this heart in my arm with a pin that you’d found And you taught me how to swim in the ocean Pulled me in although I was not prepared Said you were the one to hold on to If I was scared I hung my hopes On August by the dunes I guess I thought our footprints would not have moved Where you taught me how to swim in the ocean Pulled me in although I was not prepared Said you were the one to hold on to If I was scared If I said how I felt in the ocean Maybe it’d be me by your side instead There’s nothing that’s worse than not knowing What we might have been So now I’m afraid of the ocean And the sting of salt that’s still in the air Guess you’re not the one I hold on to I lost you there
9.
Kids Like Us 03:31
Never knew you, wish I did Other sisters, they show up to school hand in hand I’m staring again Born to people who hid their fears Whisper softly, “I wish that I could disappear” We learned not to hear That look I can't help but see It finds its way into me And somewhere in your face I saw All of our family flaws Our issues they've become our only bond Just came to quietly discuss Still counting on your trust To promise me you won't have kids like us Another wedding on the lawn Caught your eye for barely a moment too long And then it was gone Catholic family, never planned Pass the wine and I feel your eyes on my hands We're drinking again That look I can't help but see It finds its way into me And somewhere in your face I saw All of the family flaws Our issues they've become our only bond Just came to quietly discuss Still counting on your trust To promise me you won't have kids like us And somewhere in your face I saw All of our family flaws Our issues they've become our only bond Just came to quietly discuss Still counting on your trust To promise me you won't have kids like us
10.
Jet Lag 03:11
Let’s stay in a hotel Get a break from this hell In a different mirror we’ll see ourselves Remember what it feels like to be well Use tiny shampoos Never leave our room You won’t pretend that you’re too cool Maybe I won’t feel so bruised Cause you’re paranoid And you never let me breathe And I have destroyed Every single fucking thing We used to fly ‘Round the world just for the thrill Now we’re inside And have jet lag standing still If we finally tire Of suites with subway tile We can just fly away in style Run out on the charges we’ve compiled Look down at our city From the window, row 3 You’ll take the aisle to stretch your knees We’ll drop the baggage we won’t need But you’re paranoid And you never let me breathe And I have destroyed Every single fucking thing We used to fly ‘Round the world just for the thrill Now we’re inside And have jet lag standing still
11.
R U Content 03:24
Run away Come inside This ship is filled with strangers And you’re barely alive Are you a stowaway In the night? The package is marked for transit Stamped on the inside Are you content? Or are you just content? There’s no way of knowing What are we doing? Running late Never time Can life be the remainder Of our addled pride? Whose turn is it To stand in the light? Everyone owns a story With a market price Are you content? Or are you just content? There’s no way of knowing What are we doing? Are you content? Or are you content? There’s no way of knowing What are we doing?
12.
Stay awake if you can I’ll show you the life we can have I am not the enemy you think I am You don’t think I am gonna be there when you break All of your promises I’ll be by your side and take the blame I can learn to swallow it Stood with our toes in the sand You drew out the lines of demand If you leave me I will understand Cause you don’t think I am gonna be there when you break All of your promises I’ll be by your side and take the blame I can learn to swallow it But the only thing you’ll trust is your own madness Never gonna take it away You have an emptiness I can understand Never gonna take it away I’ve tried in vain to put us back together But there’s only so much more I can take I don’t want to be there when you break (Never gonna take it away) All of your promises (You have an emptiness I can understand) Won’t stay by your side and take the blame (I’m not able to take that away) I’ll no longer swallow it (I’ve tried in vain to put us back together) I don’t want to be there when you break (I don’t know why I thought this would change) All of your promises (It was always gonna happen) Won’t stay by your side and take the blame (There’s only so much more we can take) I’ll no longer swallow it (We run on empty) We run on empty
13.
Forgot the sound it makes When that old door slams closed Thought I was a man But now I’m not so sure Am I completely broken Or just a clock without a face? If all that’s left is pride What’s really left to save? Help I’m not at fighting weight So I'm not fighting today Hopefully there’s tomorrow I’ve felt like I’ve been running in place Trying to get out of my way Wondering what I’ve become now This town's not worth a postcard It barely knows its name Somewhere I’d forgotten But it remembers me That's where I’ve come running Sing failures like a hymn Cause I keep burning bridges Before I've learned to swim Help I’m not at fighting weight I’m still fighting to make Something I can hold on to Well I’m not running away I’m just passing this place These memories grow old too

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released April 22, 2022

Jennica Best: vocals/bass/synth
Digo Best: vocals/guitars
Meredith Lampe: vocals/guitars/synth
Alex Kirkpatrick: drums

Written by Colatura
Produced by Charles Mueller
Mixed by Digo Best
Mastered by Emily Lazar at The Lodge NYC, assisted by Chris Allgood
Recorded at various studios in NYC & Connecticut
Album Art by Karaska

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